everything is going gooood. jeremy is a vegetarian now, so it makes eating a whole lot easier on me, when cooking dinner! we've been eating lots of brown rice and veggie stir frys! its been basically amaaaazing.

anddd its starting to get cooler! i cant wait until christmas!

i havent written, like written LIKE this in a loose ended manner for a long time. as if i am waiting for some climax; some ultimate and then i sit down and go about with the words forever.

what if i dont want to talk about it because words butcher feelings. words butcher moods. words kill time and take up space. they try and define my mind and cant ever be understood in their original sense. words are surface and feeling (REALNESS) is the deep part. or is that the other way around?

i see so many things pass me by while I am sitting still, trying to figure them out. which is better, i am wondering. because i really hate my way only, i use both ( is there ever a comfort spot?). why should comfort be a priority anyway? if i wait for that i sit here always. i never say anything. i walk about awake and look at everything asleep because then it does not matter and i only see what i want to inside.

i cant sleep forever, that is what i am waking up to.

i want real love. the crazy, i cant live without you kind.

our love is dead but without limits.

please return to the person that you were and i will do the same; cause its too hard to belong to someone who is gone. my compass spins the wilderness remains.

make war on who you were before and claim all that has spoiled in your heart;